For the sake of my brother debut, I decided to become a Uranus superstar

Chapter 158

Luo Xiao felt that she should feel embarrassed about the current situation. After all, the milk tea that her brother gave to the girl ended up in her own hands. No matter how it sounds, this is a story of a sad man crying.

With such a good relationship between him and Lin Suyu, Lin Suyu never mentioned this matter in front of him. Luo Xiao felt that his friend probably really minded.

After thinking about comforting words for a long time, Luo Xiao finally just said dryly: "...I don't even remember whether the person who gave me milk tea is a man or a woman."

"It's no wonder you remember... After the whole junior high school, there were not many people who recognized your face. During this time, some former junior high school classmates contacted me. When it came to you, they basically said, "Luo Xiao, he still Do you have an impression of me?" Everyone knows that you can't remember people." Lin Suyu said helplessly, "I think it's a hell that you can meet so many people in this program group."

Luo Xiao was speechless.

It's not that he's face-blind to the point of no cure, he's just standing there, feeling pain and dull in exploring the outside world, and just wants to deal with the things he's familiar with every day.

In the past, Luo Xiao was completely indifferent to everything around her, and she couldn't remember people. It was not so much the reason for her face blindness, but rather because of her face blindness, she firmly drew a clear boundary with her surroundings.

Everyone outside this line was excluded from his world.

Luo Xiao's face blindness is indeed serious, but as long as he puts his effort into remembering, he can still remember it.He can remember more people in this program than in the previous 16 years. On the one hand, everyone has put up name stickers, and they can know each other’s name without self-introduction, which speeds up his speed of remembering people. On the other hand, it is Because... Luo Xiao dared to look at people.

Probably only Luo Xiao knows how serious his fear of strangers is. Even when walking among unfamiliar people, he has to rely on fugue to divert his attention, relying solely on the body's natural memory to complete the daily fixed route.For places he is not familiar with, if there is no Lin Suyu to accompany him to relieve his fear, he will not be able to step in at all.

When he was in school, socializing was not a compulsive necessity. He just had to sit in a chair and listen to the lectures in class every day, and the students around him also cooperated very much when he was air.

No one would persevere in talking to him under such indifferent feedback, so Luo Xiao quietly worked as a shadow in the class for three years, and class activities were often forgotten.

But it is no longer possible. Almost all the content of the game requires teamwork, and the random assignment caused by the process also makes Luo Xiao have to partner with a group of strangers.

Facts have proved that even a teenager like Luo Xiao, who has not dared to look at his class teacher for three years in junior high school and feels fear of seeing himself, can still greet people face to face when he is forced by a high-pressure environment.

Thinking of the embarrassing scene where he and his deskmate met in the corridor in the past, and he didn't recognize each other, Luo Xiao felt that the past self was really too much.

"When we go back to high school in the future... I will remember the faces and names of the students around me well."

Lin Suyu had a headache and said: "No, that's not what I want to say... Forget it, it's okay if you don't remember, I always feel that your junior high school is not the same as mine. Every time I gossip with you, you will ' Ah? Really? I don’t feel it?’, I doubt it’s my problem.”

In Luo Xiao's eyes, his junior high school life is as peaceful and comfortable as a pool of stagnant water. Everyone is a good kid who studies hard every day to pass the key high school entrance examination.

But in Lin Suyu's eyes——

A and B fell in love, A cheated on C, B cheated on D, and finally C and D got back together, and these four people are still good friends.

On A's birthday, he went out to have a room with B from high school, but B found another senior girl C in private, and the two of them showed their love wildly in their circle of friends.So A went to the high school to find C to have a big tear, and later became pregnant, and then had a miscarriage.

Zhang San, who is from a very good family, went abroad before finishing junior high school because of his poor grades. He couldn't control his lower body and made a foreign girl, so he was caught by the school in the dormitory on the spot.Because the school he was in was a religious college and students were not allowed to have sex before marriage, he was directly persuaded to leave, so he had no choice but to return to China to continue his studies.

After hearing Lin Suyu finished speaking, Luo Xiao asked dumbfounded: "Do we both go to the same school?"

Facts have proved that Luo Xiao lives in a vacuum with no news.

"What the whole school knows, but you don't..."

"No one told me this kind of gossip!" Luo Xiao was wronged, and then asked, "What happened to you today, you suddenly cried, to be honest, I was a little scared by you."

As long as he could remember, he had never seen Lin Suyu cry. Every time Lin Suyu was pretending to be pitiful and crying.When he cried in front of him, he could only think of the last barbecue. When Lin Suyu drank and lost his mind, he cried miserably while holding him, but he really didn't when he was sober.

"Because Brother Kuang said that I am like a lyric writing machine... I think he is right. In fact, I also want to make a breakthrough, but I seem to be too framed, and I can't overcome that hurdle." Lin Suyu held his face in both hands, The boy's blond hair curled up a few strands because he had just been covered under the quilt, "I don't know what to say, I think it might be because I'm a little envious... yes, I'm just envious, they say 'rap is for I felt very envious when I vented my true emotions."

"Before I didn't feel that there was anything unwilling. I have always done things in order to 'achieve the goal'. It is naturally good to achieve it, but I don't feel it is a pity if I fail to achieve it, because for me, it is always possible. Nothing, if this path doesn’t work, just change to another one. I don’t quite understand how others are disappointed because they have worked hard for a long time and finally failed, but now that I think about it, it’s because I didn’t expect much. So you won’t feel sad if there is no result.”

"As for the things I like... When I filled out my classmates before, I didn't know what to fill in this column. I thought it was because I didn't need it, but later I found out that I just didn't find what I wanted..."

After being silent for a long time, Lin Suyu looked at Luo Xiao who listened to him seriously and quietly, and asked tentatively, "What I want... can I say it?"

"Say it."

"...I want, 'to be loved.'"

Luo Xiao's breathing stopped for a second.

Lin Suyu scratched her hair a little tangled, making the already messy hair look even rougher: "It seems that I am a bit hypocritical when I say it this way... But, I really hope that someone can say to me every day, 'I love you so much. You" and so on. I know that you and my aunt love me very much, and I know that you will not abandon me, but I still feel... very scared. My image may be destroyed after it is over... Forget it, it seemed like It's pretty much broken."

Luo Xiao asked seriously: "Why didn't you tell me and Mom before?"

"I just think...it's unnecessary. Neither of you is the type to say 'I love you' to your family. It's impossible to change it after so many years. I'm actually used to it." Probably because it's a little bit to say the truth. Embarrassed, Lin Suyu rarely showed embarrassment, "I don't dare to mention this kind of thing, I don't know where your scale and bottom line are, in case it makes you feel annoying..."

Lin Suyu didn't continue talking, but Luo Xiao also understood.

Before Zhou Jiankang and Luo Zhi divorced, every time Lin Suyu made any request, or even begged, even if it was a very legitimate reason such as "the school needs to buy textbooks", it would depend on Zhou Jiankang's mood and expression.When he was in a good mood, Zhou Jiankang would be generous, but when he was in a bad mood, he would beat him up on the grounds that "you, an outsider, gave birth to a wild seed, so I would pay for it to raise seeds for others".

After being reminded for a long time that "you and we are not a family", Lin Suyu rarely asked for anything afterwards.

These facts happened too long ago, and Luo Xiao seldom recalled the past because she felt disgusted. At this time, when Lin Suyu mentioned it, she vaguely remembered these things.

So what happened when I was a child, I have been remembering it until now, and I brought it up so tremblingly...

"We are different from him." Feeling panicked in his heart, Luo Xiao said heavily, "When a family is not based on how close they are by blood, he and I are not in the same family."

Lin Suyu pursed his lips and smiled, his eyes were so clear that they seemed to be shining: "I know, but during that time I kept thinking, what if you really don't want me anymore, and finally felt that if I was good enough, you wouldn't Abandon me, and then pretend that you can do everything and do everything well..."

After thinking for a while, Lin Suyu continued: "Although I know that everyone likes me because of the way I pretend, sometimes I can't help but hope that if someone can accept the real me... After contacting rap From then on, I felt that it would be great to be able to use the reason of the 'stage' to say what I really wanted to say. So when Brother Kuang said that I was like a lyrics machine, I couldn't stand myself like this, so I... ..."

Relying on the taste of caramel milk tea, he stimulated himself to recall the "fear" that he had desperately hypnotized and finally successfully forgotten.

—and the sadness that accompanied that fear, hidden in the marrow of his bones.

He can no longer perceive the emotion that has never been lost as naturally as a normal person. Only under strong stimulation can he uncontrollably remember the helplessness and bewilderment he once felt.

The boy who didn't dare to admit that he was afraid can finally express his anxiety to the relatives he values ​​most with difficulty.

"The weather is getting colder and colder." Lin Suyu opened the glass window, and the bitter cold wind came from the window crack, blowing away his white breath.

Looking at the leaves rustling by the wind outside the window, Luo Xiao responded casually, "It should be snowing soon."

Under the soft light, the boy's eyelashes trembled slightly as if they contained fine grains of light.

"It would be great if it snowed earlier." Lin Suyu's tone seemed a little illusory, like a sigh, "Mingzhou...it rarely snows."

Although snowfall brings a series of troubles such as slippery ground and repairing power lines, it may also mean more traffic jams and more frequent car accidents for people who need to go to work and school.

But in the eyes of the two teenagers who have lived in the southern coast for a long time, snow is still something worth looking forward to.

"If it snows sooner...it will be fine."

Unconsciously repeating it again, Lin Suyu closed the window.

Although I prayed so in my heart, the second day was still sunny and warm, and the third day and the fourth day were still the same.

Until the day of the game——

Luo Xiao opened the curtains as usual, piercing white light streamed in from the window, reflecting pure white snow in his pupils.The fluffy snowballs piled up on the eaves, as if a soft brocade quilt fell from the sky, engulfing all the colors in the field of vision.

He opened a slit slightly, stretched out his hand, and the snowflakes falling slowly in the air covered his hand, which was quickly warmed into a small drop of water by the temperature of his palm.

He remembered that when he was studying "Shi Shuo Xin Yu" in the past, Mrs. Xie asked "What does the white snow look like?" The elder brother said, "Sprinkling salt in the sky can be imitated", and the younger sister said, "If the catkins are blown by the wind", everyone present I think the analogy of the younger sister is better.After that class was over, he and Lin Suyu struggled with this problem for a long time.

"Snowing is obviously like sprinkling salt..."

"That's right, just because catkins sound more beautiful than salt, you can't force the metaphor of my sister..."

When it snows in Mingzhou, there are snow particles falling one by one. When you hold up the umbrella, you can hear the crisp and crisp knocking sound of snow seeds falling on the umbrella surface.

The snow in Bianzhou is really... as soft and cool as catkins. When you look up, you can see flying snow dancing like goose feathers in the gray sky, rushing towards the earth.

Finally... it snowed.