For the sake of my brother debut, I decided to become a Uranus superstar

Chapter 192

Hey……?

Lin Suyu's short words were like a bolt from the blue, making her mind go blank for a moment.

"I, I really like my brother...Is it okay to like as a fan?" She didn't realize that she was maintaining a forced smile at the moment, and she was still doing her best to maintain the smile on her face, "Here, here So far... what do you mean?"

Lin Suyu's smile was as soft as the one she saw every time in the video.She has watched all the videos about him countless times, but whenever she saw him curling his lips and smiling, it was like the warm sunshine descending on the frosty soil, and the restless little buds arched out ignorantly The first green leaves emerge.

But now, with her gentle smile that was so familiar that it was almost engraved in his heart, he uttered a cruel sentence: "I think you understand what I mean, since it's time to meet, I think I have something to say Say, I can't give you unrealistic expectations."

Even though the girl in front of her was pale and trembling so pitifully, Lin Suyu continued without hesitation: "I mean, if you like me as a lover, please don't do anything for me." Well, I can't answer you."

"I... But, I don't need you to respond to me..."

She didn't know that her eye sockets were flushed, but she desperately suppressed the desire to cry, and wanted to use a relaxed tone and thought she was happy to bring this topic to a close.Unexpectedly, as soon as she opened her mouth, she was shocked to find that her voice was almost hoarse: "I just, just want to do something for my brother, that's all..."

"Buying commercials for idols is not part of fans' part. It never was. Spending money can indeed buy a lot of things, just like I can sit in front of you and eat with you now. I think it's because you buy commercials for me The matter is inseparable." Lin Suyu was silent for a while, and then said word by word, "I will not fall in love with fans."

Hearing these resolute words, Fang Xueni couldn't even recall her feelings at that time afterwards.Perhaps it was because of her strong desire to avoid that short memory, she could only see the boy she liked sitting less than one meter away from her, while everything around her was silent, only his What are the lips saying.

Lip shape is——

"sorry".

Maybe she nodded and pretended she was accepting it calmly, maybe she smiled and acted like she didn't think it was a big deal - or maybe it was nothing, just stunned by lightning sit in place.

When her brain started to work again, the first thing she felt was the increasing pain from her chest, and the illusion of being unable to breathe slowly rose, as if the vines were constricting their tentacles and tightly entangled her windpipe.

She heard her own voice weakly: "But, these are all voluntary, you are an idol, I know you can't fall in love, but, but..."

That's enough, Fang Xueni, since that's the case, let's stop here.

Don't go on talking, save a little dignity for yourself.

"At least give me a chance to spend money for you, brother can see me when you are free...no, it doesn't matter if you don't have time, I can come and see brother, you don't need to see me, I will take a look at you from a distance , that's enough..."

In the end, her voice was as low as the chirping of insects in late autumn.

She had never lowered her profile to such an extent in front of others.

"It's not because of the so-called 'idols can't fall in love' that I rejected you." Lin Suyu's voice was not heavy, "The relationship between idols and fans is naturally unequal, just like teachers and students, bosses and subordinates , is of a compulsive nature from top to bottom. Do you really understand what you are doing? If I ask you something excessive and against your will, out of love and worship of idols, you will most likely be I will agree unconsciously. Just like your teacher asked you to copy the text a hundred times, you know it is unreasonable, but you will still do it. In this relationship, I have a natural advantage over you, Do you think a relationship with unequal status at the beginning will last long? Or, do you think this is really the ideal relationship you expect?"

"I……"

"Besides, you obviously only know the 'me' through the camera and those edited videos, but you don't know what the real 'me' looks like. Falling in love should be a very cautious thing, why can you How can you make such a hasty decision without knowing someone at all? Do you want to fall in love with the imagined "Lin Suyu" in your mind or the real "Lin Suyu"? I showed it in front of the camera It's just to cater to the market's 'personality', why can you easily decide to like me through a role I pretended to be? Don't you understand that the essence of an 'idol' is a commodity?"

Seeing the girl trembling and unable to speak, Lin Suyu sighed.

She couldn't understand the emotion in his eyes, maybe it could be attributed to pity, or maybe it was some other complicated emotion - except there was no love.

"I will not fall in love with fans. If I want to use my dominant position as an idol to have a so-called love relationship with fans, then this relationship is in my hands. I can start when I want, and on which day. If I get bored, I can find another fan, and you don’t even have the right to object. If you are in a relationship, both parties should be ‘people’ with complete personality and equal status from the beginning, rather than someone giving unilaterally. This is not Falling in love, it’s charity, it’s idols raising pets—although I have no morals, no conscience, and no so-called conscience, but this kind of thing is still too despicable for me.”

Tears welled up in Fang Xueni's eyes, and her crushed and suppressed sobs echoed in the room.

Lin Suyu took out the tissue on the table, hesitated for a few seconds, and finally chose to hand it to her: "I'm sorry, there will be someone more worthy of your liking than me..."

"No more... I won't fall in love with others anymore..." Fang Xueni burst into tears, "I've already fallen in love with the best boy in the world, how can you tell me to fall in love with others again... I won't fall in love again I like someone else like I like you...!"

The elegant little girl cried without image, and even the light makeup that was tossed in advance early in the morning was washed away by tears, just as her originally happy mood was now only left with unspeakable sadness and mourning.

"sorry."

Lin Suyu no longer remembers that this is the first time he apologized. It was actually very rude to him to let the lady cry in front of him, but he could do nothing, the most he could do was pull a tissue for her, Pass it to her and say "I'm sorry".

He can say love words in front of the camera without any fluctuations in his mood, which in Luo Xiao's eyes are extremely numbing, and he can't help blushing even thinking about it, but he can't speak to a girl who doesn't hesitate to show her heart and hand it to him. In front of her, she reached out to wipe away her tears.

In the past... he was obviously not a person who would feel guilty for such a thing.

Such a self, probably something went wrong.

Perhaps because he felt that staying here would only make the girl feel more embarrassed, he stood up and thoughtfully gave her the space back.

The moment he was about to leave, he heard the girl crying behind him: "Brother, but, I still like you..."

He slowed down, stopped by the door frame, and said softly: "No one is irreplaceable. In the future, you will definitely meet someone you like even more than you do now."

Fang Xueni asked while crying: "So, is it okay in the next life... If not in this life, can my brother like me in the next life?"

Because Lin Suyu turned her back to her, Fang Xueni couldn't see the expression on his face, but heard him calmly saying: "I can't guarantee it in this life, so how can I guarantee it in the next life."

After a long time, he whispered: "If liking someone will only make you feel painful, then don't like it. I... It's not worth it."

After that, he closed the door.

——He didn't look back at her the whole time.

…………

It's really... not very good.

It was obviously the one who voluntarily refused, but his heart seemed to be on fire, causing a wry smile to appear on his face.

"It's not because Luo Xiao refused, but because you are Lin Suyu, and I don't like you. It's not because of who I like, even if I don't like anyone, I won't because of 'I'm lonely' or 'Hello Poor' this boring reason promises you, it's as simple as that."

Someone's voice seemed to be vaguely heard in my ears, every word and every tone, after two years, was still as clear as yesterday.

How was he feeling at that time?

—I can’t remember.

Looking back on the past now, it seems that the mood of the past has also turned into the yellowed and faded mottled wallpaper on the wall, and those waves are then submerged in the distant time tunnel, like an outsider examining a boring drama.

He raised his head, white snowflakes swirled in the gray sky, and the pedestrians around him were in a hurry, as if everyone was chasing something with a mission. This land that should have been silent has become alive and alive.

Only he, as if abandoned by the entire downtown, quietly looked up at the sky.

He sighed almost inaudibly, and a curl of white mist escaped from his lips, like a balloon that was loosened by someone and gradually moved away.The falling snowflakes covered his eyelashes, and were soon turned into fine droplets by the warmth of his body.

"If one day, someone is willing to like me after knowing my selfishness, weakness, and everything that cannot be revealed... that would be fine."

No one heard his prayer—it was so weak that it was not even a prayer, perhaps more like a casual sigh—in the bustling world, the boy’s voice disappeared like a breath of white air Melting into the distant and boundless sky.