69novels Chapter 155
Chapter 155
Holding his last breath in front of Bai Beiyang, Luo Xiao, who showed an extraordinary level of composure, walked out of the opponent's line of sight, a layer of blush slowly appeared on his paralyzed face due to high tension, and there was still increasingly red trend.
Ahhh, what the hell was he talking about just now...
Recalling what he did just now, Luo Xiao only felt that the emotion of "embarrassment" almost became a reality and penetrated into his bones. There was no place in his body that was comfortable, and even the "memory" itself made him feel uncomfortable. I had the urge to scream out loud.
"Of course, part of the reason is that I'm not happy now—you can understand that I'm avenging myself."
Why did he say such things at that time!
why! ?
for!Varied!what!ah!
Was his brain broken or filled with water? Now that I think about it, I am too ashamed to say it. How did he say it so righteously and confidently? ?
I wanted to control the crazily flying barrage in my mind, but Bai Beiyang's sneering face still popped out from time to time, like a TV cassette, popping out from every corner, playing repeatedly .
"Do you think you're the hero of the hot-blooded manga?"
"You are too naive, do elementary school students draw the [-]th parallel?"
Embarrassment, embarrassment, arrival, suffocation, breath.
Luo Xiao picked up the courier in his hand and knocked it on the head a few times, trying to divert himself from the mental pollution that was inhumane and painful——
"……What are you doing?"
Lu Zhenglin patted him with a look of bewilderment: "Are you okay? What's the fuss?"
Luo Xiao who turned her head looked unlovable: "I...I'm fine. I am, so happy."
"The way you express your happiness is to smash the courier on the head?"
Luo Xiao: "...don't mention this matter again."
Although Luo Xiao seems to be calm at this time, his face is paralyzed and even makes people feel a little indifferent, in fact, his inner world at this time is as chaotic as ten thousand alpacas are frantically tap-dancing in the square in front of the Potala Palace .
Please, stop mentioning it! !
He doesn't know anything! !Really don't know anything!
He bangs his head against the wall when he's happy!Are you scared!Don't be afraid that he will perform a head-boom on the spot! !
After staring at Luo Xiao for a while, Lu Zhenglin wisely changed the subject: "Did the folder arrive?"
"It should be. I haven't had any other deliveries recently." Luo Xiao's attention was finally diverted from the inhuman embarrassment, and she opened the express box in her hand.
Unlike Lin Suyu who deliberately buys things in bright colors, most of Luo Xiao’s things are in classic black, white and gray. Little things for decoration.
When I first saw this scene, it was the same as Luo Xiao's impression, it was as cold and indifferent as the layout of a hotel.But if you take a closer look, you can still feel the taste of life in the carefully and neatly coded cabinets.
Only the stack of high school textbooks and paintings in the lower right corner has an unusual style. The outermost one is a high school mathematics book with a slightly rolled corner, and a stack of scratch paper for calculations is sandwiched in the book.
Luo Xiao took out the math book and turned to the last page. There was a neatly clamped purple letter, and the smell of lavender on it hadn't completely dissipated.
Looking at Luo Xiao's strangely colored folders on the table, Lu Zhenglin looked delicate.
Because Luo Xiao asked him for his opinion when he was picking out the file box, he said, "If it is specially used to hold fans' gifts, it is too plain and not good", so Luo Xiao gave up buying the most common blue file box in the office. It took quite a long time to pick out the idea, which was quite distressed, before it was finalized.
But at this time, Lu Zhenglin began to doubt Luo Xiao's aesthetics.
For letters from fans, choose a file box that is more pink, purple, and purple. If you think that printing cartoon patterns is too naive, you can also choose a starry sky pattern. Why did you choose this kind of...a mess? Red, black, yellow and green lines, a cover that seems to be spiritually polluted.
Lu Zhenglin vaguely remembered that every time there was a topic like "This kind of scribbled painting can fetch sky-high prices, no one can understand it at all", it seemed that this painting would be pulled out and whipped.
"This is not the same painting as that one..." Luo Xiao said strangely, "I don't really like the one that was auctioned for a sky-high price, it feels too depressing, but this one has a good atmosphere, I don't think it's very spring breath?"
Lu Zhenglin: "..."
From Lu Zhenglin's point of view, it was like a puddle of vomit that a person vomited up because of stomachache after eating bananas, blueberries, eggplants, pumpkins and other foods of various colors.
I'm sorry, but he really doesn't understand the abstract paintings made by this drip painting method.
"If you just buy a file box, you may not be able to put it down in the future." After being hit by his lack of artistic accomplishment, Lu Zhenglin reminded weakly, "The letters you will receive in the future may be dozens of times that of this box. If you really If you want to pack it, it would be better to pack it in that kind of big cardboard box."
Although more people are directly thrown into the shredder.
Lu Zhenglin didn't say this.
Now that Luo Xiao has just received letters from fans, and she still feels fresh, it seems too inappropriate to say such words.
When Luo Xiao received more and more letters in the future, he didn't need to remind him at that time, he would make the same choice himself.
After all, there are too many letters from fans, so many... not only will it not make people feel happy, but it will even make people feel bored.
Although every idol will say "I will read each of your letters" to make people happy, in fact, it is very sincere to read one-tenth of them.Some idols still smiled when they accepted it, saying "I will definitely read it when I go back", and then the fans turned around and found the unopened letter in the trash can at the airport-the feeling of heartbreak probably Only those involved will understand.
Luo Xiao smiled a little embarrassedly: "Well, I know. But this is the first time I have received a letter from a fan, and it feels... more commemorative, so I wanted to pretend it specially."
Lu Zhenglin didn't say anything more, and asked another question casually: "Have you met Lin Suyu in the past two days?"
Luo Xiao nodded: "I went to look for him."
Although the two of them stagger their schedules due to grouping issues, Luo Xiao still visits the next door from time to time, so Cen Xingguang jokingly called him a "preparation member of "CanULoveMe", which made Luo Xiao feel embarrassed.
But... Sure enough, I was still a little flustered alone. If I went to see Lin Suyu next door, even if both of them were busy and couldn't say a few words, I would feel much more at ease just seeing each other.
"Is... is he okay recently?"
Luo Xiao was puzzled: "What?"
Lu Zhenglin always felt that his current image was very much like a big mouth making small reports, so he resisted the awkward feeling in his heart and said, "When I passed by them several times, I heard loud quarrels... Are you sure you don't know?" What will happen?"
"... He, quarreled with someone?" Luo Xiao blinked and said honestly, "I don't think I've seen him quarrel with anyone, so I can't imagine it."
According to Lin Suyu's emotional intelligence, in fact, it is rare to get to the point of quarreling, and he can make people happy before the quarrel begins.Moreover, probably because of his personality, in front of outsiders, Lin Suyu was still smiling even when he was in a hurry, and the more angry he was, the brighter his smile.If he felt that the other party was an eyesore, he would not quarrel with them at all. Instead, he would just dig a hole and find an opportunity to kick the other party in and bury him, and he would also step on it to make the soil firm.
Seeing that Luo Xiao didn't seem to be aware of his intention to tell him about this, Lu Zhenglin sighed inwardly, planning to ask the program team to apply for an empty room for sleeping in these two days.
In Lu Zhenglin's heart, Lin Suyu is a potential element of instability. Isn't it scary enough that such a person who usually only smiles now quarrels with others?
Lu Zhenglin saw a picture on the Internet before, to the effect that if the behavior trajectory of a normal person is "calm-angry-killing", the behavior trajectory of an honest person is "calm-angry-killing".Although Lin Suyu was not an honest person, Lu Zhenglin inexplicably felt that there was no sense of disobedience in this picture covering him, and he was very nervous at this moment.
Some time ago, the scene of Lin Suyu picking up his railing at night frightened him. Lu Zhenglin, whose sleep disorder has worsened recently, felt that he couldn't continue like this.In the past two days, he always woke up suddenly in the early hours of the morning, and brushed his scarf to see the fans' fancy confessions before going back to sleep.One night, because of an accident, he saw someone Aite. He was looking at the pictures of the scene of the car accident, which was dripping with blood and limbs.
Lu Zhenglin could feel that his violent tendencies became more and more obvious day by day. Recently, he had to resort to forcefully take away his mobile phone to cut off the internet. As soon as he went online, his mood deteriorated at a speed visible to the naked eye.
The pressure is really too great. In just a few days, I have to come up with a decent stage for writing songs, lyrics and dancing.Under such high pressure, if negative emotions are not dispelled in time, serious problems will occur both psychologically and physically.But as a trainee, he has to restrain his irritability in front of the camera, and pay attention to his behavior all the time. The scolding battles on the Internet are also continuously affecting his mood-in such a closed environment, things that were originally small, started Unlimited magnification.
If he hadn't had to dance with his teammates, Lu Zhenglin would have thought of locking himself in the room alone, staring at the blank wall in a daze, pretending that he was living in a filtered glass box. This blank world has no viruses, no Bacteria, no pollution, nothing, he can do nothing, think about nothing.
Here, he is a "person" who will be sad, irritable, and scold dirty because of anger, but once he goes out, he has to be the best idol Lu Zhenglin who will not be angry or angry and will do everything perfectly.
He feels like he's splitting up, and living like a double-faced person makes him sometimes confused about which side is his real self—or, neither.
If he became paranoid because of his neurasthenia, and finally developed into him and Lin Suyu hacking each other with kitchen knives in the dormitory, it would be a lot of fun.
Seeing Lu Zhenglin walking out, Luo Xiao asked concerned: "Where are you going?"
Lu Zhenglin paused, without turning his head: "I want to be alone."
With Lu Zhenglin's departure, the dormitory also seemed much emptier—although the four-person dormitory often felt cramped and cramped, this kind of liveliness also made people feel more secure.When the program is not broadcast, there is no so-called intersection of interests.Everyone can still socialize normally like roommates, but now... it's getting farther and farther away.
It was only a few months before and after.
The emotional connection between people is really too fragile.
Luo Xiao carefully opened the letter in her hand.
Although the handwriting on the letter paper was not beautiful, it could be seen that it was carefully written stroke by stroke, and it was very correct.
"Brother Luo Xiao:
Hello there.
I don’t know if it would seem abrupt to call you that way, but I’ve always called you that secretly in private, so I couldn’t help but start with this when I wrote the letter. I hope my brother won’t blame me.
In fact, falling in love with you at the beginning was a very accidental thing. There are too few shots of my brother, so few that there is no such person in the previous episodes.Maybe my brother doesn't know that he can shine on the stage. I didn't understand why some people fall in love with someone just because of a stage, but now I seem to understand.
I selfishly think that my brother is the most dazzling person on the stage that day, as long as there is you, I can't see other people, as if your light makes others invisible.
In the future, I also want to continue to see my brother shining brightly on stage.
Please pay more attention to protecting your body, don't get sick, and please be more confident, there are really many people who like you.
PS. I like the way my brother smiles the most, as if he can pull people out of the night. For this smile, I also want to work hard to become a better person, as if this can bring me closer to you.
I wish my brother a smooth star journey, liking you really makes me feel very happy, and I want to be so happy forever. "
Luo Xiao closed the letter, carefully put the letter into the file box, then stuffed it next to the pile of textbooks, and sat on the chair in a daze for a long time.
Although human emotions are fragile, the moment of laughter is full of sincere and unshakable happiness and joy.
Cherish the present, not the future.
Even if you wave goodbye in the future, thank you for liking me.
"If my existence can make you feel the beauty of life, even if it's just for a second...that's what it means to be an idol."