Don't be clouded

Chapter 52

Insects and birds chirped outside the house, and it was full of life.

The serenity and serenity of Xuanqing Mountain did not extend into the precept hall, where there is only the rotten smell of old wood.

Guan Chen opened his mouth and replied: "I am thinking that the name of Guan Chen is not worthy of disciples."

Zen Master Jueming coughed suddenly, holding on to the corner of the table, every time his old body trembled, it felt like it was about to collapse.

Guan Chen clenched the Buddha beads tightly, and wanted to get up to support him, but he heard the old man say with difficulty: "Kneel down."

He continued to kneel on the spot without moving.

After a while, Zen Master Jueming finally stopped coughing, and panting, he asked, "You still miss Huizhi's identity, don't you?"

Watch the dust without saying a word.

"You do have the roots of wisdom, otherwise I would not have placed high hopes at that time." The old man spoke slowly, with a calm tone but every word was serious, "But you are more than intelligent, and your heart is not clean, so I gave you the current Dharma name. I want you to look at the world of mortals and examine your own nature."

Zen Master Jueming said sadly, "But you can't check it out."

Guan Chen was shocked.

Yes, he can't detect it.

He knows that one must see one's mind clearly and one's six roots should be pure. He has memorized most of the Buddhist scriptures fluently, and he can even explain the profound meanings to others.

He understands those reasons, but he can't do it.

The old man swallowed the pain, and said slowly: "You went to Lingzhou a few years ago on the grounds of repairing the Buddhist temple, and brought back a young man. Although the young man's surname is Ji, I can also guess that he and the Liu family There are countless connections."

Guan Chen didn't speak, and acquiesced.

"You also lived in Lingzhou, I brought you back to Xuanqing Temple from there, you should remember."

Jueming was still in good health four years ago, and wanted to wander around the world of mortals again before passing away.When passing through Lingzhou, he stayed at Lingdong Temple. At that time, Lingdong Temple was already in ruins. He took a fancy to Huizhi, who was fifteen or sixteen years old.

At that time, he only knew that Huizhi was related to the local Duwei's family, but he didn't go into it.Just because it is not beneficial to delve into the past, it will only bring more entanglements.

"How did I tell you then?" asked the old man.

Guan Chen almost didn't need to think about it, he had already remembered those few words in his heart.

He said in a deep voice: "You said that the appearance of the past is all illusory, and there will be many obstacles in the future. You want me to observe the world with my heart, so I don't want to live in it."

The crutch was raised, the end resting on his chest.

Zen Master Jueming nodded his heart, "Then how have you been doing these years?"

Although the force was light, Guan Chen felt a pain in his heart, and even his soul was questioned heavily.

He has cultivated the skin of a great disciple of Xuanqing Temple over the years. From outsiders' perspective, he is calm and transparent, and acts properly. He is the best candidate for the next abbot.

But he knew that he was always struggling.

Guanchen's connection with Buddhism did not come naturally, it could even be said to be the reluctance of fate.

When he was still Zhao Quehan, from birth to his teens, the best thing he got was this name.

It sounds like the name given to the child by a scholarly family, but in fact his origin is as humble as the dust on the side of the road.

My father got involved in gambling and ruined the family long ago.Zhao Quehan was the fourth child in the family, born at a bad time, and was criticized by a fortune teller in the next village, saying that he had restrained his father and mother.

So when he was ten years old, he was sold to Ren Yazi by his father.Because of his good looks, his father negotiated a high price and exchanged two taels of silver for the family.

Since he was ten years old, Zhao Quehan has been sold to many places.But he has a stubborn temper and refuses to obey discipline. He will only become more stubborn when he is beaten. Every time he visits a family and stays for a few months, he will be sold again.

During that period of time, he was always full of anger, and he couldn't tell who he was angry with. He just simply felt that the world was extremely dirty.

He suffered severe beatings and harsh treatment, and traveled in various places for two years.

Finally, he was sold to the Liu family in Lingzhou.

On the first day, he disobeyed the old servant's discipline, but he was not beaten and punished, neither was he on the second day, and he calmed down on the third day.

Zhao Quehan made a decision for himself, he wanted to stay with this family.

In the early morning of the fourth day, he was taken to the master's room by the housekeeper.

As Zhao Quehan, he met a young master named Liu Yunjing.

It was a sick child, but he was only ten years old, but his life seemed to be coming to an end.

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, hot charcoal is burned indoors to keep the house warm.Zhao Quehan felt hot and dry as soon as he entered, but the child was wearing a thick jacket and yelling at his mother like a baby.

Liu Yunjing spoke in a low voice, the smile on his face seemed forced, and his cheeks were abnormally rosy.Therefore, even though she acted like a lively child, Mrs. Captain did not open her brows, but only had a faint smile in her eyes.

Zhao Quehan only glanced at it, and met the curious eyes of the young master.

The pair of mother and son looked very similar. Young Master Liu inherited those warm eyes and soft outline, and when he looked at him, his eyes sparkled, like a little fairy boy in the legend.

The young master asked crisply: "What's your name?"

Zhao Quehan only stood there for a while, his bones were invaded by warmth.He thought to himself that such a poor and lovely young master would definitely not want to see him with a cold face, so he loosened his tightly pursed lips.

"My name is Zhao Quehan." He said.

This is his first name with Liu Yunjing.

Zhao Quehan had been Young Master Liu's servant and playmate for a few days, but Captain Liu and his wife found him alone and said they wanted to discuss something with him.

The couple couldn't speak, and hesitated again and again to ask him to help save Liu Yunjing's life.

They found a new way to save Liu Yunjing, it was a mysterious and mysterious folk remedy.

There is a folk practice that if a child suffers from a disaster in his life, he can ward off the disaster by becoming a monk.But the rich family is not willing to send their children to practice, so they have the practice of finding someone to protect the young master and miss from the disaster.This method is also particular, not everyone can replace it, and the horoscope must match.

Zhao Quehan's horoscope coincides with Liu Yunjing's.

The captain and his wife have visited famous doctors over the years, but they were desperate, and finally came up with this hopeless method.They discussed with Zhao Quehan that he only needs to stay in the temple for three years, and when the time comes, they will pick him up and leave the secular life. Just ask for any reward, and the Liu family will definitely honor it.

For him, this is a bargain.

There is nothing wrong with becoming a monk. There is food, clothing and shelter. Although it is not as good as the life of the Liu family, it is much better than his life in the previous 12 years.

What's more, Zhao Quehan and Liu Yunjing have been together for a few days, the young master is still optimistic even though he is at the end of his strength, his sickness and innocence have turned into a temperament that makes people feel soft.

He didn't want to see Liu Yunjing die like this.

Zhao Quehan agreed, and the reward he asked for was to set him free after three years.

So he lived in Lingdong Temple, became a monk, received precepts, and got a perfunctory dharma name—Huizhi.

This is his second name with Liu Yunjing, and it is also the one he repeats most often.

Zhao Quehan entered Lingdong Temple, no matter whether he believed in Buddhism or not, he devoted himself to becoming a monk.I never miss morning and evening classes every day, and spend most of the day reading Buddhist scriptures carefully.

The big and small masters in the temple treated him neither bad nor bad, and cared about his relationship with the Liu family. They only spoke harsh words occasionally, which was not a hindrance.

At first he couldn't know the news from the outside, and naturally he didn't know if the young master had recovered.

Until half a year later, Liu Yunjing appeared in Lingdong Temple without warning.His body looks much better, he can walk and jump, and he looks like a normal child.

Young Master Liu brought a big bag, which contained clothes, food, and even his own toys.

"I just found out yesterday that you didn't leave at all, you became a monk, and it was because of me..." Liu Yunjing was deeply ashamed, and didn't dare to look up at him, "I told my parents, and now I'm fine. , you don’t have to stay in the temple, but they don’t listen to me.”

Huizhi watched without saying a word, but Liu Yunjing became even more flustered when he didn't get a response from him.

"I'll apologize to you. I'll bring you delicious food every day. You can beat me and scold me." The young master finally dared to look up at him, pleading, "You might as well just leave secretly. I'll lie for you Said you fled in the opposite direction."

"Lieutenant Liu Du didn't tell you, did I do it voluntarily?" Huizhi remained unmoved, a little indifferent, "After living here for three years, I will be free and upright. If you let me go now, I will will not be free."

Liu Yunjing stopped talking and left Lingdong Temple in a daze.

However, he still sneaked in the next day, still with a package.Day after day, over time, Huizhi became Young Master Liu's playmate without hesitation.

The relationship between the two young children is very strange.

A young master of the captain's mansion and a young monk who protected the young master from disasters, although they were incompatible with each other, they became friends in the small world in the backyard of the Buddhist temple.

Zhao Quehan could hardly refuse, not because he couldn't, but because he couldn't say the words to push away Young Master Liu.

Liu Yunjing seemed to be born to be a lover, and his innocence made people feel soft.With the purest kindness and warmth, he melted away his coldness, and exchanged his frankness for the childishness in his bones that had never been shown to others.

Those days were the happiest for him, the hole in his heart was finally filled by someone, and there were finally human fireworks in this dirty world.

Perhaps at that time, a seed of the world of mortals was buried in his heart.

Zhao Quehan had no intention of leaving at all, he was used to Liu Yunjing's existence, until almost a year later, something happened to Liu's family suddenly.

A dull thunder suddenly exploded in the sky, the sound seemed far away, but it seemed very close, so close to Guan Chen's ear.

He snapped back to his senses, and his eyes fell on the futon under his knees.

Guan Chen collected his thoughts, lowered his eyes and replied: "The disciples are indeed invincible, but such a big Xuanqing Temple not only needs to be an eminent monk, but also needs someone who can make it survive the wind and rain. Brothers and brothers are all I am obsessed with practicing Buddhism and don't care about worldly affairs. The master knows in his heart that the disciple is the best candidate."

Zen Master Jueming was silent for a long time, and said tiredly: "You know that I don't want Xuanqing Temple to be involved too deeply in the court, and you want to lose the title of National Temple, so you use this to blackmail me, don't you?"

Guan Chen replied respectfully: "I don't dare, but I owe too much to Xuanqing Temple, and I also owe too much to Master. I am willing to work hard for Xuanqing Temple and repay the kindness."

The old man put down his crutches, and his breathing sounded like the beating of an old bellows.

After all, Zen Master Jueming's illness hurt the root cause. The old man can't get sick, and every time he gets sick, the light of his life will be dimmed.

Guanchen couldn't bear to look more.

After a long time, he heard the master say: "You look at the statue of the venerable and ask yourself, is it really possible to let go of the Buddha's relationship? Can you really repay it?"

He raised his head and looked at the statue of the Venerable.King Kong's glaring eyes seemed to be able to see through anything in the world, and naturally they could also see his inner struggle.

After practicing Buddhism for several years, it has long been difficult for him to escape.

Zen Master Jueming seemed to have aged a lot, and said powerlessly: "All actions are impermanent, and all dharmas have no self. Your attachment at this time will still be the same at that time? You have always had the root of wisdom, so think about it carefully."

The old man staggered away again, leaving him here alone.

Master's last few words echoed in Guan Chen's ears, and he was at a loss.

All actions are impermanent, all dharmas have no self... There is no definite number in this world, he cannot guarantee that the path he chose is correct, nor can he be sure that Ji Bieyun will always need him.

But he really needs a world of mortals with Ji Bieyun around.

The author says:

In fact, the fate of the two people has long been intertwined.