[Comprehensive] Jinmu Rebirth

Chapter 494

After the death of his father, his life was tepid, so that He Xiuyan had no choice but to understand the lives of ordinary people.He still remembered the astonishment on his mother's face when he wanted to secretly throw away a soiled piece of clothing.

"Yan, why throw it away? Mom can wash it for you."

"But isn't it hard work..."

Compared with washing clothes, throwing clothes is of course much easier, and it would be even better to be able to buy a new one.

He believes that Yue Shanxi also thinks this way, so he doesn't wash his clothes very much every time, and wears them as soon as he can, fearing that things like washing powder will stain his fingers, and he can't wait to delay until the day when he goes out to buy new clothes .

He Xiuyan, who also had such corrupt thoughts, naturally heard his mother's sigh again.

"Where did your idea come from?"

The woman's finger tapped the tip of the black-haired child's nose lightly. The tip of the small nose was reddish, very cute.

Big black pupils, and a round face, but in sharp contrast to the slightly thin body under the clothes, her child is born with a pleasing face and a worrying physique.

"Yan, the family's money can't be wasted."

"But if I spend it, it's better than my aunt always saying that my refrigerator and washing machine are broken, so I can borrow the money."

"..."

The woman fell silent.

"Mom, don't worry about your aunt's house?"

After a while, He Xiuyan's fearless personality reappeared.

He has resentment and fear for his dead father, but for his extremely gentle mother, the only thoughts left in his mind are "How should I let her live well" and "Mom's sister is too bullying".

As for the group of children who bullied him, He Xiuyan can be sure that as long as there is no rule in the dream that forces him to stop, he can take revenge outside the story in the dream.

It was one thing to be physically weak, but he hadn't really become a child mentally.

He Xiuyan's rhetoric couldn't get her mother's approval, the woman shook her head, "My sister's family is in trouble, I have to help a little bit, and my sister also understands my situation...it won't be too much."

Then, as if to reassure him, the woman smiled.

"I will go out to work tomorrow, and buy new clothes and books for Yan every month, so that Yan can not wear dirty clothes."

"Do not……"

That's not what he meant, but the words were stuck in his throat and he was restrained from speaking.

He Xiuyan opened his eyes wide, looking at the woman's busy back. The other party was preparing dinner for him, and sorting out the resume for going to work in the hospital tomorrow. The calluses on her hands became more and more day by day.

If his father was alive, no matter what, he would not let his wife fall to this level.

Even if the Hexiu family's financial resources leaked through their fingers, it would be able to make an ordinary woman live comfortably for the rest of her life.

In the next year, he and Xiuyan lived a relatively good life, and had enough clothes to change every month. After all, every time his body grew, the clothes would get shorter.In terms of food and clothing, his mother tried her best to give him everything she could, and didn't let him go out and feel inferior like an orphan.

At dinner, He Xiuyan ate the hamburger made by his mother, and thought it was better than the carefully selected meat from He Xiu's family.

The simple aroma is the taste of home.

His teeth were small and hadn't been replaced yet, but it didn't take much effort to bite the meat.

The nature of the ghoul makes him like meat, and he doesn't pay much attention to vegetables.His mother didn't know the diet of the one-eyed ghoul either. In order to make him eat more, the fried hamburger would be sandwiched in lettuce.

Sometimes these burger meats are pork, beef, or shrimp, and sometimes they are human flesh.

The other party went to work in the hospital for him.

In this society, there are not many jobs that can easily come into contact with corpses, and hospitals are one of the best places to enter.For him, his mother tried to obtain human flesh and blood, just to raise her unique child.

He Xiuyan let himself forget what his mother said, and firmly remember this family relationship.

On his fifth birthday, he got a cake sweeter than human flesh, with five candles stuck on it, cheap and precious.His mother sat beside him, applauded him gently, taught him to blow out the candles, and make a wish for this year.

In Hexiu's house, this was something he couldn't get.

Grandpa and Uncle can't eat human food, and don't teach him to eat human cake.

"What wish did Ken make?"

"...It would be nice if it could go on like this forever."

He Xiuyan looked at the blown out candle, and spoke in an inaudible voice.

How great would it be if you could take care of me growing up?

He can be admitted to the University of Tokyo, can return to the Hexiu family, and even become the heir of the Hexiu family, the next chairman of the CCG.If the woman who gave him half of human blood and life lived to that point, he could give her anything, so that the woman who worked so hard to raise him could live easily.

The son wants to support but the relative does not wait.

Doesn't this old oriental saying describe his situation when he grows up?

At this moment, the only thing he is grateful for is that he can see his mother in childhood and feel the warmth of her.

"Mom, I can raise you when I grow up."

The childish words spoken by the child in front of the birthday cake made the young mother in her 30s laugh.

She said in her usual gentle tone.

"Okay."

After the Kaneki family lost their male master, the female master supported the whole family.

As the child grows up and reaches the age of six, the family's expenses gradually increase. His mother, who is studying with him, has to buy him school supplies and various extracurricular tutoring books. The most important thing is to marry Asaoka into the Asaoka family. When the wife saw that her sister's family had no worries about food and clothing, and had money to send the child to a nearby private elementary school, she thought a little bit carefully.

A slender woman with specially dyed long hair who knows how to dress often comes to the door.

"Can you give me some money? My son's tuition..."

"The refrigerator is broken and I want to replace it."

"Sister, please help my family anyway, my family really needs money."

"younger sister……"

Every time the woman came to the door, she smiled all over her face, as if the relationship between sisters was very good.When she mentioned her family, she sighed and clasped her hands, begging her sister to lend her some money.

Sitting at home with Xiu Yan, who had no right to interfere with mother's affairs, watched the hidden jealousy in her aunt's eyes with cold eyes.

ridiculous.

A person with a perfect family is jealous of a single-parent family.

He Xiuyan continued to look at the book his mother bought for him, with pictures of this era on it, making up for his childhood without fairy tales.Next to his ear, he heard the woman whispering again: "Your children are doing well, my husband is really a wimp, he just asks me if I have money."

There was a fire in my heart.

She has no money in her family, so does she have a lot of money in her own family that can be donated to the other party for free?

He Xiuyan didn't forget the pressure of his mother in the past two years. Before his father died, his mother didn't need to work at all, she could just take care of herself at home, but now her mother has to go to the hospital to work for him.

He pretended to accidentally knock over the water glass and called "Mom", which interrupted the reminiscence of the sisters.

The woman wiped off the water stains on the table with a rag, "Didn't you wet the book?"

He Xiuyan pursed his lips and did not speak.

"Yan, it's okay... I'm here, and I won't lend her money today."

The woman froze, and suddenly hugged him into her arms, and Xiu Yan felt the soft chest and the sweet breath of his mother, and the anger that was about to make him die calmed down.

The black whites of Heyan's eyes that appeared unconsciously disappeared, and the pupils changed from scarlet to black-gray.

Leaning in his mother's arms, he said sullenly, "Mom, let her go."

Then, he touched his stomach again, "I'm hungry."

No matter how much he eats during this period, he can't get enough to eat. When there is no "tender vegetables", he can only eat human food.

He lowered his face once to act like a baby, and successfully made the soft-hearted mother forget the darkened aunt, and could only see himself.He likes this feeling of being valued by others. How can those outsiders compare to him? In order for him to live a good life, that aunt who is like a blood-sucking bug has to go as far away as possible!

After driving my aunt away, I had a happy lunch with Xiuyan, and then my joy turned into sorrow.

A click.

One of the upper primary front teeth fell out.

"..." He covered his leaking mouth, his face turned blue and white.

Ghouls lose their teeth!

No, one-eyed ghouls lose their teeth, that's unscientific!

The woman was also stunned, and held back a smile to coax him to open his mouth, "Let mom see, mom won't laugh at you."

After He Xiuyan reluctantly opened his mouth, he swore with his five keen senses, and his mother smiled.

Excessive!

you lied!

In the next few days, He Xiuyan refused any behavior that showed his teeth, and he kept his head down when eating, and carried out the behavior of saving face to the end.Seeing that he cared so much about a tooth, his mother really stopped laughing at him. Even though his speech was vague and many words would leak, his mother communicated with him with an encouraging attitude.

The constant care helped He Xiuyan to survive the difficult period of changing teeth.

However one thing happened.

Mother was dismissed.

It was found that someone destroyed the corpse inside the hospital, and all suspicious low-level personnel were fired after undergoing RC value inspection.

And in this accident, Linghe Xiuyan didn't eat any "tender vegetables" for three months!

Not eating for a month can make a normal ghoul starve with starvation, and not eating for two months can make all ghouls, regardless of gender, age or age, fall into a hell of starvation, madly attacking humans, and not eating for three months—the result Only death.

He Xiuyan relied on human food to maintain his body functions, and was so hungry that his body was limp.

It is impossible to go to school in such a state.

He doesn't have a Hebao, so he consumes less RC cells, but no matter how few, he needs a certain amount of supplementation.If the common ghouls want to survive, they must hunt humans, and obtain the RC cells in human flesh and bones through eating.

Lying under the quilt with Xiuyan, he felt his mother's tears in his sleepiness.

He moved his little fingers, held his mother's index finger, and thought: Mom's fingers have become rough.

In the eyes of ordinary people, the "sick" black-haired child murmured weakly: "Mom...so uncomfortable..." He could feel the throbbing pain in his stomach, but human food was useless. Every cell in his body They are all greedily longing for fresh meat, wanting to eat endless food.

Except for the mother's human beings, all the people around him are his dishes.

As soon as such thoughts appeared, He Xiuyan's left eye turned red like blood, like a demon.

But he couldn't see what he looked like.

"Mother……"

He suddenly felt his mother's fingers trembling slightly.

Are you sad?

Holding on to the feeling of drowsiness, He Xiuyan went to look at his mother's face, but found that the other party's face was pale and his eyes were somewhat complicated.

Soon, the other party went to the kitchen to pour him a glass of milk and prepared a hot hamburger.

"Yan, you won't be hungry after eating."

"...don't...can't eat enough..."

He Xiuyan wanted to vomit reflexively, his hungry stomach was rejecting human food, and he only wanted to eat "tender vegetables".

But facing his mother's concerned eyes, he still took a sip of milk.

Huh?

This taste... is acceptable.

After grunting a few times, he and Xiuyan drank all the milk, and their lips were stained with a circle of white foam.

When he looked at the burger again, he ate it in small bites.

Even with his face scrunched up, he still finished the human food that would keep him alive.There is nothing more important than living. If you eat burgers without "tender vegetables", the energy of food can keep you alive in a human state.

"Mom, this milk is..."

"My mother bought it. In the future, my mother will try her best to buy this kind of milk for you."

Seeing that his complexion had improved, the woman hid her tears, and answered and Xiuyan with a smile.

It's certainly not milk.

It is human milk.

The only food that can be bought through normal channels, but the price is high, and both humans and ghouls can drink it.

In the blink of an eye, He Xiuyan can resume normal activities. His body is a little weak, but there is no problem in class.Later, one after another, he ate several "tender vegetables" mixed with human food. The amount was small, but it could restore some vitality to him.

Since he had been ill, another thing had revived.

My aunt came to borrow money again.

That pretty woman, with her hair getting longer and longer, looks glamorous day after day.

"Give me a little subsidy, please, sister."

There was a rare smile in her voice.

Then, she looked at the black-haired child who always hindered her from borrowing money, "Yan-jun is so cute, don't you think about him? In the future, our two families will support each other, and Youyi can also play with brother .”

Who cares.

He Xiuyan pouted, Yuichi Asaoka in his own world didn't know where he was sent to.

A gleam of indifference flashed in his eyes.

In the five years of his life, it seemed that he was the one who gave alms to his aunt's house.

Seeing his mother take out another pack of subsidies from the drawer to his aunt, he wanted to talk to Xiuyan, but his mother closed the door of the room, and through the wooden door, he heard his aunt's joyful voice outside: "Thank you, Now I can raise money to buy Youyi an earthquake-resistant schoolbag that other children have, and he will go to elementary school in a year."

He Xiuyan's face changed slightly.

An earthquake-resistant schoolbag costs at least tens of thousands of yen. How can such a comparison be needed in elementary school!

What made him hate him the most was that his mother was not angry at all. While chatting with his aunt about the child's schooling, he didn't seem to feel at all how much pressure would be added to his family after taking out the subsidy.

After the aunt left, he walked to the door with Xiuyan, and said unwillingly, "Mom."

His mother knelt down and patted his head.

"nothing."

Behind this sentence, the woman started a life of going out early and returning late the next day.

She sent He Xiuyan to school and looked for a job during the day. She was trying any job that could come into contact with a corpse, and those jobs were undoubtedly a kind of mental devastation for women.

He Xiuyan didn't understand his mother's hard work, so he stopped talking about being hungry as much as possible and learned to endure alone.

He can survive without food for three months, then four months, five months... Maybe he can try to accept it.

Immediately afterwards, he found that his aunt came to his house again, this time not with a smile, but with tears on her face.

The woman knelt on the tatami, covered her face and cried bitterly, "My damn husband, he is borrowing money outside... The debt collectors have come to my house! They said that if my family doesn't pay back the money, they will sell the house Drop! That’s the only house my husband and I have, without a house, Yuichi and I wouldn’t be able to live.”

Faced with such words, He Xiuyan gave up.

Because he doesn't need to listen to know... Mom will never abandon Auntie.

Big deal, let's live a poorer life.

It was a rather large loan without an IOU, and his mother chose to lend it to his sister after being embarrassed.

At that moment, He Xiuyan saw the most disgusting smile.

It came from his blood relatives, the woman who was obviously his mother's sister who did such a thing.

"..."

Tch, why is this kind of garbage alive.

He Xiuyan turned around and stopped looking at his aunt's hypocrisy, fearing that he wanted to kill that person.

He returned to the room, looked at the photo of the family of three, and wiped off the little dust with his fingers, "Dad, Mom is so kind, the money you left us was taken away by my aunt's family."

There was a pause in his words, and he uttered a cruel sentence in a childish voice.

"Can I kill her?"

But the dead could not answer him after all.

When that man was alive, all he wanted was not to become a ghoul, not to bully others, and to love this world.

For the first time, He Xiuyan felt confused. Why did his half-human father ask him to choose to be a human?

Father, don't you also have half of the ghoul blood in your body?

My aunt's husband lost his job due to debts, and the family was in a state of panic all day long. They kept borrowing money from Jin Mu's family without issuing an IOU. Once such things were mentioned, they would gossip about him and use tears to cheat more money. pity.

During the day, He Xiuyan saw his mother go to work, and when she came back at night, her mother tied up her hair, changed into clothes that were not easily dirty, and went to work as a cleaner in hotels, restaurants and other places to wash dishes and mop the floor.

When she is free, she does some odd jobs, such as folding flowers and other things that can be done at home.

He hardly saw her having time to rest.

He Xiuyan felt uneasy about her desperate efforts, "Mom...does it matter if you don't rest?"

Sitting behind the desk, the mother who was transcribing and translating books raised her head, the prescription of her glasses deepened, and the wrinkles at the corners of her eyes appeared under the high-intensity work, but she was still comforting her son.

"do not worry."

How could it be possible not to worry, the end of this going on - death from overwork.

He Xiuyan did not forget what his grandfather told him: [... She kept asking your mother to borrow money to repay the debt, and even threatened her that if she didn't borrow money, she would expose her collection of dead human flesh. Your mother was exhausted to make money in the end... at home. 】

I'm exhausted.

He Xiuyan put his hands on his mother's shoulders, hugging her thin body, his nose sore.

"Mom, take a break, Yan will help you copy."

"what."

After snatching his mother's pen, he urged her to go to bed and rest quickly.

The woman rubbed her forehead and said with a weary smile, "It's in English, and it needs to be translated into Japanese, can you understand it?"

He Xiuyan smiled and said, "Let me try it, maybe I'm a language genius."

He is fluent in many languages.

In the end, when his mother didn't believe him at all, He Xiuyan drove her to sleep anyway.

The condition is that he is not allowed to touch her things.

Respond to training and research one by one.

Turning around, he sat on his mother's chair, read the translation, and tried to copy it down.

Suddenly, a word could not be left behind.

【here we go again. 】

[This damn restriction!Don't let him change his fate! 】

He Xiuyan resisted desperately, his hands stuck in mid-air, and the tip of his pen couldn't write any words.

After a while, he shouted in despair.

"Let me write, I can write..."

The knowledge in his head and the prediction of the future can completely change this impoverished family!

At this moment, Kaneki Ken overlapped with Xiuken in his childhood, as if he experienced his own powerlessness and sadness in another period. He longed to change this status quo, drive away his aunt, and protect his poor mother.

The pen was broken in the middle.

With uncontrollable force, He Xiuyan's pen tip drew an ugly horizontal line on the paper.

A piece of paper on which my mother wrote half of the translation was scrapped.

"..."

He Xiuyan's expression was stiff.

to finish.

The next day, seeing the "graffiti" on the paper, the woman didn't say anything, but smiled gently.

She tore off the discarded paper, her fingertips turned slightly white, pressed it hard and threw it into the trash can.

it's OK.

She can continue to write, at most a little delay.

In order to make a living, He Xiuyan also switched from a private elementary school with high tuition fees and strong teachers to another national elementary school with cheap tuition fees near his home when he was eight years old.The original school was set up with Xiuyan's father, and the procedures and procedures for going to school were completed before his death. As long as you continue to study, you can go to the private junior high school or even high school in this school.

These remaining tuition fees were taken out to give the mothers who were studying with them a chance to breathe.

In the new school, He Xiuyan met a familiar person.

——Forever Yingliang.

A boy with messy hair and fat cheeks sat in the same classroom, and he could still look like a grown-up on the outside.His curious eyes looked back and forth at the new students in the class from time to time, and his eyes were full of vitality. Children of this age are very interested in new things.

He Xiuyan subconsciously avoided his gaze, but made the other party's eyes light up.

In an instant, Yongjin Yingliang put several labels on him in his heart, accurately capturing the characteristics of his personality.

【New students. 】

[Aloof. 】

[Introversion. 】

[Looks like he was transferred from the school next door. 】

Within a few days, He Xiuyan, who had always been an insulator in class, was approached by the other party.

And Xiuyan: "!"

The boy with a little runny nose simply lay on the opposite side of his desk, his eyes sparkling.

"What book are you reading?"

Looking down, Yongjin Yingliang took the book and exclaimed in a fuss: "Oh? How interesting?!"

He Xiuyan: "..."

If you can understand, there will be ghosts.

"It seems like I'm always studying alone." Yongjin Yingliang scratched his cheeks, finding that He Xiuyan was still so indifferent, he continued to himself, "It's not bad...I just moved here live, so..."

Seeing He Xiuyan's quiet and delicate appearance, his cheeks suddenly turned red, put his hands on his knees, and said with a bright smile: "You, can you be my friend?"

He Xiuyan was taken aback.

This smile has not changed for many years.

Seeing the new classmates who just transferred to the school like him stunned, Yongjin Yingliang felt very hopeful.

However, He Xiuyan held up the book, blocking their sight.

"No."

This is definitely a troublemaker.

Yongjin Yingliang's heart was broken, and the first friendly exchange was defeated by the other party's non-violent non-cooperation.

He was dumbfounded and sniffled, "Why?"

He Xiuyan said expressionlessly: "I don't want to be friends with a person with a runny nose, thank you."

Do you know that this is poisoning my vision, hearing and sense of smell!

We do not date, bye!