Beijing Food Guide

Chapter 17

How could she not know my thoughts?

"Look at your performance." She squeezed her face, feeling like collagen.

"Look at my performance." I grinned again with a smile.

"Stop crying, okay, I would have made you cry if I had known earlier..."

"What's the matter with you? Regret it?"

"No regrets, I said it earlier."

I have always given full marks to her responsiveness.

"Sister, if you don't cry, just swallow Shanlihong, what should you do if you're choking?"

She doesn't like to be immersed in an unhappy atmosphere all the time, and always adjusts the atmosphere.

"Then you eat the rest." She took it and ate it.

When she went back, she bought some food at the vegetable market, and she took the initiative to buy a dozen beers: "I'm happy, I only drink when I'm happy."

Back in a confined space, the air becomes a little strange.

"Sister, let me come. You take a break. I'm chasing you now."

"Why did you tell me all of a sudden?"

While washing the vegetables, she replied, "Because I think you are so cute when you eat candied haws."

Seeing that I was looking at her, I got back to the topic: "I have been trying to find the most suitable time to talk about it, because I think this matter is too important, and it needs to be on a formal occasion to be worthy of it." A few words, and I don’t know how to tell you, because these words are too light, it can’t let you know how much I like it, but I want you to know it urgently. I saw you eating today Candied haws, it’s really too cute, I couldn’t help but said it, and then I realized it’s not that difficult, I just want you to know.” After a pause: “Besides, I like to eat with you, eat Anything is fine, I just want to eat with you."

She spoke slowly and I could hear her clearly.The eye sockets were a little sour, and she shed tears while chopping vegetables.

She found something was wrong, turned her head, and wiped my tears while wiping her hands.Helplessly smiled: "Sister, why do I always make you cry? It seems that I am still far away from chasing you."

"Sister, sister. Look, it's snowing outside!"

I followed her eyes and looked out, it was really snowing, in patches, just started to fall, not too big.

Lying on the edge of the window to watch the snow is actually very common, but because she is there, I feel very happy, which is probably the case for people in love.

There is snow outside the window, there is heating in the house, there is food, there is good wine, and there are people you like.All of a sudden, the ice and snow outside, and the shadows of swords and swords are isolated from the door, so there is no need to think about so many intrigues and intrigues.

The most troublesome thing is whether I will gain weight if I eat too much today.

Although she bought a dozen beers, she only drank two cans. . . . .

I should have thought of that earlier. . .

The two of them sat quietly by the bed watching the snow. As the snow fell, the flakes became bigger and a layer slowly piled up on the ground.

"I used to love to stand outside when it was snowing. I deliberately made a head of snow come into the house, and then I heard my mother say me." Every time she talked about her mother, she would be very gentle.

"Zhang Yan, why do you seldom mention uncle?" I realized it was a bit abrupt when I said it.

She flattened her mouth, opened her mouth to say something but didn't say it.

"Well, my dad." I haven't seen her speak so hesitantly.but

"He is a good man, a good man to most people, he is filial, a good son, a good brother, it can be said that he is also a good father, he is righteous and a good buddy, so it seems that he is very good, but I don’t know when the relationship between me and my father has become more and more dull. It may be that I grew up slowly and began to have my own ideas, thinking more and more from the standpoint of my mother.”

She is talking about her father here, and I think she still respects her father very much.I let her lie on my lap.

"Father, he has rules and a bottom line in dealing with people. I think a large part of my behavior is influenced by him, but I haven't learned that he is so good at making friends with people. My sister has inherited his advantages. I grew up I don't like to talk very much. At that time, my family always said that I was a pest, and I didn't change much when I grew up.

I respect him a lot, but I don't want to get close to him, mostly because I don't want him to be a good brother, a good son, I just want him to be a good husband, but he is not.

My mother has worked hard and complained all her life, and got sick from exhaustion. I feel sorry for her. My father may not mean it, but he always puts my mother down in words. He is very impatient with her. I never gave my mother some patience and care for the leader. Every time I saw my father, I would think of my mother's grievances, which made it impossible for me to get close to him.

I hate this kind of person. He gave the best side to others, but left the worst side to his mother. In the end, the person who can accompany him to take care of him is his mother, not others. He has done all kinds of good people , but I just want him to be a good husband, I want him to be good to my mother, that's all. "

She spoke very calmly, but I could feel that she was very sad and helpless.I am angry at my inability to do anything.

"I'm very afraid of becoming like him." I heard her trembling voice, leaned down and hugged her, I didn't know what to say, but I could feel her emotions, which made me feel distressed, but I couldn't do anything except hug her and pat her, and I couldn't even say a word of comfort.

After a while, she sat up and said slowly: "People ask me how to comfort me when I'm upset, but in fact, I don't need to do anything, you just stay with me by my side, you don't have to do anything, just stay with me all the time. , I’ll be fine with you by my side.”

Her eyes are sad but gentle. I don't know how much struggle and helplessness I have experienced to get her now, a woman who can still love life.

I put my hands on her face and told her gently: "Zhang Yan, I will always be with you, you will not become like your father, you have always been very kind to me, you have given me patience and Careful, respectful, trust me, I will always be by your side."

Gently wiped her tears, I don't know when she has been so important in my heart.Every move, every frown and smile will affect me.

"Sister, I think you are really pretty."

You are kind, brave, and assertive.

You know you are a person who is as dazzling as the stars and the moon to me, a person that I dare not even dream of, and then one day suddenly fell by my side, every day, every day I think that I can see you, I am very happy, every day I I am looking forward to seeing you again, and I am looking forward to the next meeting from the moment we parted.

I wanted to look at you from a distance, but I couldn't help being attracted by you. I was greedy for your kindness to me, the warmth you gave me, and I like the peace of mind around you. I want to cook with you , eat together, and talk a lot of nonsense together.But I am afraid that I am not that good, I am afraid that I am not worthy of you, I often wander between inferiority complex and self-confidence.

I have always been afraid of being bonded with others, because I am afraid of being separated. Although the feeling will fade over time, I will always remember that it was a very uncomfortable, uncomfortable feeling.

Because I am not used to sharing my thoughts with others, I have always kept my distance from others.

I don't want to intervene in other people's lives, and I am even more afraid that others will intervene in my life and then leave.

I know your situation is much more difficult than mine, and I don't know if I am good or bad for you, which makes me constantly attracted to you but resisting being attracted to you.

I don't know how other people express their love, I can only think of using such words to tell you, I think these words have been held in my stomach for a long time.

She held my hand, looked at me and said, "Sister, I said this to tell you my thoughts. It doesn't mean you want to respond to me.

We are not young anymore, and we have to think about a lot, which we cannot get rid of.

But as long as you are willing, I will fight with you, and I will not leave.

If these reasons seem very high-sounding, the fact is that you were already in my heart before there were these reasons.

I can't believe her eyes and sincerity.

What happened tonight was not in my plan.It's like a dream and I don't want to wake up.

I knew that I was crying, but the reason for crying was strange. There were joy and emotion, impulsiveness and sadness, and more joy. I was really happy that my feelings had responded, and I knew exactly what she wanted.

But she was able to say what was on my mind, which made me feel sorry for her, a sense of shame.My heart is full of mixed feelings, sour and swollen, but unexpectedly warm.

I've been looking forward to this moment for a long time, but it's really near but I feel erratic. I can't imagine how much courage she took to take this step. I know that feeling, afraid of losing, so I don't I wish to have it, so I know better how much determination is needed to dare to say such a thing. This is not a bet with luck, it is a bet with myself.

I understand the kind of loneliness and the suffering that no one can tell. Maybe I once had the desire to talk, but I didn’t know how to say it. It gradually became really hard to say, and finally I lost the desire to talk. .

When I mention this to you, it only proves that I am dissecting myself to you, I trust you wholeheartedly, and all my dark, vulnerable, and unknown sides are shown to you, maybe Bloody everything.

Reckless and unpredictable, it may scare others away, or it may make people discouraged.

If you are willing to accept me, then everything about me will no longer be hidden from you.

It may be easy to like someone, but it is not easy to truly accept a person and everything about her.

When we start being together with someone, we seem to be interacting with the person we imagined, and all the inappropriateness in the middle will be blocked by the freshness and our own imagination.

Slowly we will be surprised, sad, and even angry, why such a person.

Rather than this, I would rather show you the ugliest side of myself first, maybe it is cruel and unfair to you, but I don’t want to slowly cut myself open for you to see, but you run away, although you can’t Blame you, but I'll still be sad myself.

"Zhang Yan, I'm not going anywhere."

She smiled and turned to look at the snow outside the window.

Deep down in our hearts we all want to be firmly chosen, sure that you will not go, sure that you will be by my side.

The snow is getting bigger and bigger, but I am very down-to-earth, never before.

"Sister, I think I have a lot to say to you, but today I talk too much and my brain is not enough, let's listen to some songs and sleep."

"Well, no rush."

Once feelings find an outlet, they cannot be held back.

Zhang Yan, you were sent to me by God.

The author has something to say: the holiday is coming soon, hold on.

马上就可以胖三斤了感谢在2020-01-1911:48:48~2020-01-2011:02:38期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles every autumn;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!