a day on thursday

Chapter 21, Letters 71 and 72

Luo Chaomu:

Zhan Xin'an.

I don't think I can hold on any longer. I used to think that I was an excellent person, but now I feel like I'm no fart. I can't compare myself to others. I'm really overconfident.

I'm a piece of shit, I can't do anything well, I feel like a piece of shit when the teacher taught me the competition, I can't say anything well, I can't do anything well, I wasted that spot for nothing.I fucking regret studying business administration. I don’t want to learn it anymore. Whoever loves to learn it should go for it. I should choose Chinese language and literature. It’s also a trump major. , I will stop studying, I will drop out of school, and I will take the college entrance examination again.

I don’t do it anymore, I don’t say anything, I want to go back to Rongnan, I don’t read, I don’t want to do anything, I don’t do it anymore.

I don't want Doan anymore

Luo Chaomu

Li Sixi:

Seeing a letter is like a face.

You are waiting for me at your school, I will come to you.

Huishu respectfully

Luo Chaomu

The first semester of the sophomore year, in late October.

I've never seen your letters crash, that's the only time.I heard Xin Ji said before that your mood in October was not very good, most of it was because of the competition. Not long before the competition, you didn’t know where to watch the video of the previous players’ competition, and you immediately retreated. Say you don't want to play.

At that time, your whole body was in a big meltdown, and the game was about to start in November.When I found out, I immediately took a taxi to find you. It was very close, and it was only a 15-minute drive. I called you when I arrived, but you didn’t answer. Someone else answered. It seems to be your senior sister, she said. You are in a bad mood and are walking around the playground.

Your playground is very big, but I can still find you at a glance. At that time, you looked dejected, and it seemed that you must have cried before.

"Tell me about it."

I asked calmly.

"There's nothing to say, so be it."

You reached up and touched your nose.This action usually means that you are not telling the truth.

"Do you really want to?"

You had already taken a few steps forward, but you suddenly stepped back, speaking in a completely different tone from before.I've never seen you like that in my memory.

"Do you think I want to? Do I want this, is this what I want to learn? If my mother said that my brother learned this, would I put this in the first place? I don't want to, I I don’t want to be compared to others, I’m also very sad, why do you all say that if you hate it, you have to do your best, what the hell is the reason for this, I don’t want to hear such words, I really hate it, But I can't say it.

Also, Luo Chaomu.Can you come without me telling you to come, making it seem like I can't do without you.I admit, I like women, and I, Li Sixi, just like women, and I just like you, that's the kind of person I am.You're scaring me like this, I don't know what I'm going to do. "

As you said that, you squatted down and cried.

"Li Sixi, just be yourself. You don't need to prove anything to others. I will go with you for all your choices. I'm sorry that when you filled out the application, what I said was your own choice, and Not for you to ask yourself what exactly you want.

But I can walk with you on the road you choose. If you want to see me, I will come to see you. If you say you like me, my answer is that I love you. "

"Li Sixi, look up at me." I bowed to look at you, but you lowered your head.

At that time, I was carrying the light on my back, and for some reason it started to rain suddenly, and I felt a little cold on my back.

The people on the playground started running instantly. After all, no one wanted to get wet in the rain. At that time, some people ran, and some people looked around for shelter from the rain.

Neither of us moved.

"Look up." I held your face in my hands, you were crying and your eyes were red.

There was a bang of thunder that exploded in the sky, and the rain fell immediately, and the raindrops hit my back. It was a heavy rain, a heavy rain in autumn.

Lips to lips, your lips are a little salty, it smells like tears, but the heavy rain fell, and it quickly diluted it, the rain was cool, I held your face in my arms, and kissed it very forgetfully, others were scattered in the heavy rain Running away, and the two of us kissed unscrupulously in the heavy rain, surrounded by the sound of rain, no other sounds could be heard, and the air smelled of mud.

"Little ancestor, I have answered you."

We parted, I looked into your eyes, and you nodded blankly.

I hold you in my arms, your face against my chest, my heart is beating fast because you are beating so fast.

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Will someone be kissing in the rain while others are running around.