69novels Chapter 20 Goodbye
Chapter 20 Goodbye
Fu Sihan did not deny it. It seemed that it was true that he was going to marry Fang Miao.
Chi Baiwan sat there with his legs crossed, his complexion was very bad, and his face was also very pale, except that there was a flush of love on his cheeks, his hair was a little wet, and he looked very embarrassed.
He was like a wild child who had never been treated well by anyone. He was left there, his whole body was dirty, his eyes were downcast, and he didn't realize it.
Chi Baiwan struggled to hold his eyelids, not letting himself cry out for nothing. He bit his lip and breathed cautiously. The loud air flow came out of his nasal cavity, with a few tremors at the end.
Chi Baiwan stroked his hair with pale and slender fingers, and asked quietly: "Brother Han, do you really want to marry Fang Miao?"
He leaned his pale neck on his arm in a daze, and turned his head to look at the sea.
Big drops of hot liquid trickled down from the corners of his eyes, but he couldn't hold it back after all.
I used to think that what was played in TV dramas was all nonsense. The one I love had to marry someone else, or a shitty marriage. Only when it was my turn did I realize that art comes from life.
Chi Baiwan sniffed, forget it, he was going to die anyway, so why cry.
Fu Sihan was buttoning up his clothes one by one. Hearing this, the smoldering fire in his heart was stirring again.
It's always like this, even if you get fucked, you still don't let it go.
Not to mention that he didn't intend to marry Fang Miao, even if it was true, it's nothing to do with a lover.
Chi Baiwan is really very capable of making trouble out of no reason. This idea has already jumped out of Fu Sihan's mind instinctively. As long as Chi Baiwan said it, it is just doing it, and it has no meaning worth pondering.
His long and narrow eyes were extremely disappointed, and his tone became a little more indifferent.
"What does it have to do with you whether I marry Fang Miao or not? Don't you want me to let you go? Don't you don't care anymore? From what standpoint are you asking this question, and what are you?"
No one could stand Fu Sihan's indifferent questioning. A series of questions smashed Chi Baiwan's head.
Chi Baiwan lowered his head and looked at his chest, where there used to be a never-ending heart beating red for Fu Sihan.
Now, that heart seemed to be stained with dust and sand, and it stopped beating bit by bit in the cold and salty sea breeze.
Chi Baiwan blinked his eyes, feeling that the tears on his face were drying up: "I don't count anything, I'm sorry, I shouldn't ask."
Fu Sihan didn't want to talk to him anymore, he frowned and put on his collar, looking down at him, "Just sit here and reflect, when will you figure it out, and when will you go back."
Chi Baiwan wiped his face, and said in a calm tone: "What do I want to understand? I have done nothing wrong. If loving you is a mistake, then I can't turn back, but I am just your lover, your plaything, you I don't care whoever I marry."
Chi Baiwan said in person that he doesn't care anymore.
Fu Sihan squinted his eyes slightly, approached Chi Baiwan, and stepped on his ankle with the toe of his shoe that was not stained with dust. The strength was neither light nor heavy, just enough for Chi Baiwan to feel the pain.
Chi Baiwan had no expression on his face, his eyes were out of focus and fell on his ankles, and he frowned for a long time.
The sea breeze blew Chi Baiwan's clothes, leaving a big gap, together with the flexible curvature of his waist, it seemed so unbearable to pinch.
Fu Sihan seems to have just discovered how thin Chi Baiwan is today. When he was in bed, Chi Baiwan was always full of love and devotion, making people forget that he was actually a little bit depressed. Pale, the whole person is sick.
What kind of illness could Chi Baiwan have?Isn't it ridiculous for such a big person to play tricks and sympathize?
Fu Sihan exerted some strength on his feet, and asked quietly, "Does it hurt?"
Chi Baiwan grabbed his trousers, nodded first, then shook his head, and finally smiled.
Ankle or heart, I can't tell which hurts more.
"Fortunately."
"Chi Baiwan, I've raised you for so many years as a dog, you have no heart." Fu Sihan's voice was even colder: "You have to go, right? Walk down the sea, don't breathe, you can leave me forever. "
Chi Baiwan's eyelashes fluttered a few times, it seemed that at this moment, he realized that Fu Sihan's idea might be good.
Just lay there forever on the bottom of the sea, with shipwrecks, sand shells, gorgeous coral, and maybe a mermaid.
"Yes." Chi Baiwan said softly, his voice was as lonely as a lighthouse in the lonely sea: "Then I will leave you forever."
"you dare."
Fu Sihan pinched his chin to make him look up, but when he saw those peach blossom eyes filled with tears and excruciating pain, he was completely overwhelmed by the emotion in them.
The more severe words that followed were stuck in his throat.
He didn't intend to force Chi Baiwan to death, but Fu Sihan realized that Chi Baiwan might really be ill, and he had been ill for a long, long time.
"I dare."
Chi Baiwan didn't want to wait for him to say the following, but just looked at him through the tear film, and repeated: "I dare, I want to leave you, and I will never come back."
His tone is very firm, falling to the ground is a nail.
Even Fu Sihan, who had never been afraid of any danger, was a little taken aback at this moment.
This time, it was a little different from before.
Fu Sihan felt unspeakably flustered, and could only take a deep breath, "I advise you to think twice, you can't afford to leave me."
But Chi Baiwan seemed to give up his mind completely, his eyes lowered, he looked at the pair of shoes that Fu Sihan stepped on his ankles, wiped them with his sleeves, and his voice was very soft.
"Dirty you? It's okay, it won't happen in the future."
Fu Sihan lowered his head unbearably, and held his shoulder.
It was only then that he realized that Chi Baiwan's shoulders were very tight, and his arms were too thin. Usually, he couldn't see it when it was draped softly around his neck, and he was always at his mercy. In fact, it seemed that he hadn't had a good meal for a long time.
Last time I still ate the bowl of foie gras noodles, and I loved it so much.
Thinking of the foie gras noodles, Fu Sihan's face became gloomy again.
"Chi Baiwan, I'll give you a chance. Take it back." Fu Sihan said in a cold voice, "I'll pretend you didn't say anything. Come into the room with me now, and stop resisting me."
Chi Baiwan didn't feel that he was resisting, and closed his eyes tiredly, "I'm just telling the truth, Brother Han, let's end it, leave this island, and you will treat me as dead."
Chi Baiwan never thought that the marriage between Fu Sihan and Fang Miao would be the last straw that crushed him.
Make him reluctant to play even the last bit of pretense.
The sea breeze blew through his hair little by little, his pale eyebrows slightly curved, watching Fu Sihan's stern face, he turned and left.
Fu Sihan's back was still tall and straight, maybe he still took Chi Baiwan's words as a joke.
But Chi Baiwan hasn't made a joke for a long, long time.
Fu Sihan never cared.
When he closed his eyes, Chi Baiwan seemed to be able to hear all the breathing and rhythm of the island.
On the coast, the tide beat against the dark rocks, and the sound of wind chimes in the distance was empty and light, like a pair of bony hands stroking his back, calling him, come on, come on.
There were traces of silvery white thunderstorms in the dense clouds in the sky, and the sea was no longer calm. The wind blew over from the sea, blowing the leaves and hitting Chi Baiwan on his body.
Chi Baiwan rubbed his ankle slowly, it hurt a lot.
There seemed to be fine sand on the soles of Fu Sihan's shoes, and the dark red bloodstains mixed in the fine wounds were shocking.
Chi Baiwan picked out the sand one by one, wiped the blood with his sleeve, and heard footsteps not far away.
"Chi Baiwan, what are you doing sitting here?" Huo Jue frowned, "Get up, it's going to rain, come back with me."
Huo Jue and Ling Luo had a big quarrel, and were about to leave the island by boat, saw that it was going to rain halfway, and were about to go back, when they ran into Chi Baiwan.
Huo Jue thought, this gentle canary seemed to be sad to death, and wondered if it had offended the benefactor.
Huo Jue didn't think it was very important, it was just a money transaction, Chi Baiwan seemed a little too emotional, Huo Jue couldn't understand.
But he can understand why Fu Sihan likes Chi Baiwan. Canary is tolerant, strong, and very patient. No matter how bad others treat him, he never blames or gets angry.
Although there are really many people who look down on him.
Huo Jue heard what those people on the island said behind their backs just now, how ugly it is, "upside down", "it's for sale", "vixen", "Will there be AIDS", Huo Jue frowned when he heard it It's hard to believe he's in high society.
In fact, Huo Jue also regarded Chi Baiwan as such a person at first, but later he discovered that Chi Baiwan was actually very good, so good that there were almost no such gentle people in the whole world.
He just lacks love, so he grasps a little bit of warmth and refuses to let it go, even if he is pierced and bruised, he is willing to give.
People who lack love like to please others, Huo Jue thought, whether it is family affection, friendship, or love, Chi Baiwan has none.
At this moment, when Chi Baiwan was sitting there alone, Huo Jue felt that he was going to disappear, and realized in a trance that he didn't seem to be that strong, but he was actually very fragile.
As if abandoned by the hope of life.
Huo Jue frowned, seeing that Chi Baiwan took out a fruit knife out of nowhere, it was very long and sharp, and he raised his hand to stab his heart.
Huo Jue's scalp was numb, and his body reacted before his soul. He flew over and grabbed the blade, ignoring that the blade cut his palm, and shouted loudly: "You are crazy! Let me go! If you want to die, let me go!" Get away and die!"
Chi Baiwan couldn't hear Huo Jue's words at all, his eyes were scattered, and he searched for the source of Huo Jue's voice without direction.
Chi Baiwan hid the blood bag in a certain small room, just now he took the knife, he really lost hope of surviving.
Just like what Fu Sihan said, lying on the bottom of the sea, falling, falling...
Chi Baiwan turned his head away in a daze, saw the blood in Huo Jue's palm, his pupils shrank for a moment, and he suddenly woke up, "I'm sorry!"
"What's the matter with you? How big a problem can't be solved?" Huo Jue endured the pain, gritted his teeth and pinched his wrist, "tell me what's the trouble, and I'll help you! Also, before my hand gets better, you give me Live honestly, did you hear me!"
Chi Baiwan dropped the knife, knelt in front of Huo Jue, bandaged him with his clothes with trembling hands, breathed rapidly, bit his lips and remained silent.
Huo Jue looked at his red eyes, his bitten lips, the pinch marks on his neck, and his trembling kneeling legs, all of which without exception showed that he and Fu Sihan had just had sex and had another big fight. shelf.
If I guessed right, Canary was so sad that she should have been abandoned by the benefactor.
"He doesn't want you anymore?" Huo Jue asked directly.
Chi Baiwan didn't answer, but asked softly, "You...how did you appear here?"
According to the plot of the original book, Huo Jue should be with Ling Luowo at this time, enjoying the rare island date, and forgetting about the bad things of the big villain Fu Sihan.
But Huo Jue actually violated the plot of the original book and appeared in front of Chi Baiwan.
Huo Jue closed his eyes, very irritable: "I don't know, I just can't stand Ling Luo anymore, he has been blinded by hatred, and is planning how to get Fu Sihan into prison, I just want to stay with him It's annoying."
As soon as the name Fu Sihan was mentioned, Chi Baiwan's expression froze again.
Just at this time, there was a sudden explosion sound on the island, and then all the lights were extinguished, the switch seemed to be damaged, and all the power facilities failed.
Huo Jue hissed: "Hey, take it easy, you hurt me."
In the darkness, Huo Jue could only see his shining eyes, like two red peach blossoms, holding his hands and looking left and right nervously.
Huo Jue sighed: "You are not afraid of death, my injury is worth your attention?"
Chi Baiwan pursed his lips and shook his head, "That's different, it has nothing to do with you if I seek death."
Looking at his pale face, Huo Jue knew that he had regained his composure, and breathed a sigh of relief in his heart: "Okay, I can save a person's life when I get injured, and when I die in the future, Lord Yan can still give me money." An official position is worthy, and I am a good person with a plaque."
Chi Baiwan lowered his eyes. Although he was in a bad mood, he was still amused by Huo Jue's tone.
His pupils were a distant light glass color, which seemed to be scattered just now, lifeless, and he looked around in a daze without falling.
It was Huo Jue's joke that pulled him back from the brink of life and death, and he gained some popularity.
Huo Jue blinked, and the expression on Junyi's side face softened a little, "Smile more, ever since I met you, you have been depressed, always standing beside Fu Sihan quietly and sensiblely, and your face is also pale It makes people feel unbearable, if you are sick, go to see a psychiatrist, don't be bored by yourself."
Chi Baiwan didn't speak. Huo Jue stood up by holding Chi Baiwan's shoulders under the moonlight, and dragged him up by the way, leading him to the boat at the seaside port.
Chi Baiwan suddenly stopped, "Wait, I'll be right there."
Huo Jue didn't know what Chi Baiwan was going to do, he only knew that he was wearing thick clothes when he came back, as if he thought the sea breeze was too cold, so he didn't ask any further questions.
The power system in the ship was still being supplied, and some people on the island who needed to return to the voyage filled the cabin. Chi Baiwan was dragged by Huo Jue to appear in front of the people, which aroused a lot of discussion.
Chi Baiwan didn't want to hear it, so he said in a low voice: "Mr. Huo, I have a headache and want to go outside to have some fresh air. Excuse me."
After finishing speaking, Chi Baiwan nodded politely, turned around and left, when he passed by the kid who was knocked down by him just now, he knelt down and took his little hand, and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry, little brother, I apologize to you, forgive me OK?"
The little boy's mother hugged him indifferently, not letting him touch Chi Baiwan, as if afraid of being dirty.
Chi Baiwan didn't say anything, endured the dizziness caused by anemia, stood up, coughed a few times, and felt that there was sand in his lungs.
The little boy said suddenly: "Brother, it's okay, I don't blame you."
It's okay, I don't blame you.
Chi Baiwan didn't look back, he almost ran away.
How could he want to die just now?Obviously this world is not too bad, look, there are still people who tell him it's okay.
Chi Baiwan came to the deck alone, and watched the ten-man-high waves hit him. He had no time to dodge, and there was a bang, and the cold sea water fell from the sky, patting him drenched.
"Chi Baiwan, what kind of demon are you?"
At some point, Fu Sihan was standing at the top of the stairs holding a black umbrella, "A quarrel is not over, you have to jump down to count?"
Fu Sihan wore a windbreaker, and the sea breeze wrapped him around him, outlining a handsome and handsome figure. A man who is used to pampering even has slender and beautiful hands. When he was holding an umbrella, it was so cold that he had no warmth.
Chi Baiwan had nothing to say, but at this moment, a sharp lightning bolt struck from the sky, and the torrential rain raged in an instant. The lightning bolt illuminated Chi Baiwan's face, which was poignant, gentle, and fragile to the point of heartbreak.
Fu Sihan looked at him deeply, but still couldn't bear to scold him again.
"Come here, don't make me say it a second time."
"Do not."
Chi Baiwan's eyelashes trembled twice, and he slowly lifted them up. Just looking at Fu Sihan, Chi Baiwan couldn't breathe. Every time he took a breath, his heart throbbed.
"Brother Han, I never joked, I love you, it's true."
Chi Baiwan's voice was too weak in the wind and waves, but Fu Sihan could hear every word clearly.
"It's true that I don't love you anymore."
Chi Baiwan's smile became more and more gentle. He just looked at Fu Sihan like that, and holding a shiny and sharp knife, he stabbed fiercely into his heart.
"Goodbye."
The blood spurted out in an instant and was washed by the sea water, so it was impossible to verify whether the blood really belonged to Chi Baiwan.
Then, Chi Baiwan held the knife, closed his eyes, and fell straight backwards as if he had dropped an anchor.
The boat was very high, and when it fell down like this, it caused a lot of waves.
For the first five seconds, Fu Sihan didn't move.
Five seconds later, his face turned pale, he dropped his umbrella and ran over, staring at the bottomless black sea.
The torrential rain came more urgently, slamming on the ship, and there was no one at the place where Chi Baiwan fell. The sky was too dark, and Fu Sihan couldn't see anything clearly.
The lights on the boat scanned the past, but still found nothing. The turbulent sea was extremely dangerous, and anyone who fell into it would definitely be buried in the bottom of the sea.
Fu Sihan suddenly seemed to have been hit in the back of the head with a sap, and he began to breathe wildly. He raised his hand and grabbed the collar of his clothes.
For some reason, he felt heartache for the first time in his life.
Chi Baiwan plunged the knife into his heart in front of him, so fast that Fu Sihan couldn't believe it, let alone recall it.
But he still chewed on Chi Baiwan's expression at that time over and over again, gentle, affectionate, and ashamed.
The heart is ashamed.
He didn't realize until now that he seemed to have lost something.
Fu Sihan didn't know what that thing was called, but he clearly understood that only Chi Baiwan could give him this thing, no one else could give it to him, no matter how much money he spent, he couldn't buy it.
Fu Sihan couldn't tell what he felt in his heart, he just felt that a large piece of flesh and blood had been gouged out by a knife, and the blood was dripping, making his whole body cold.
No one in Fu Sihan's life had ever rejected him. Chi Baiwan was the first one who dared to run away from Fu Sihan in such a grand manner.
Why is he?
What is he?
How dare he?
Before Fu Sihan had time to react, he had already jumped into the sea level.
The author says:
感谢在2022-09-0821:16:50-2022-09-0918:06:46期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦——
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